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Christian rock. From the Where Do We Go From Here album, released in 2004. More info from Wikipedia.
As much as I don't think it's going to happen, I'm going to do my absolute best to keep this update short. I'll try not to digress any more than absolutely necessary.
Really, I'm updating to express my opinions on Kayla and how things have been progressing between the two of us. Things between us are going great, and I'm not really feeling like she's talking with me out of pity anymore. I've come to realize that this is just her way of taking things slow, and now that I'm used to it, I have completely different opinions on the matter.
Take for example what happened last week. An hour or two after I got off work (on my middle day last week), I got a text from her saying that her aunt and uncle invited me to attend the little Christmas party that Kayla's family was hosting. Initially, I told myself no, primarily because it would have been pretty late upon getting out there, but I second-guessed myself and had a change of heart. Unfortunately, this took place at a bad time - Kayla was getting ready to leave by the time I sent a text back saying that I'd be interested. It was at this point that I was really tempted to just drive out there so I could see her for a few minutes, and despite my best efforts to persuade her to see things from my point of view, she politely declined, taking note that I had to get to work the next day. It was at this point where I got a text saying something along the lines of, "I was just hoping I had a chance to see you tonight, that's all."
Yeah, I definitely think that she's not trying to play me for a fool and that her interest in me is genuine.
Last night, she asked what I was up to today and followed up with asking if I'd like to join her for a quick lunch in Hartsville - nothing fancy like normal. I didn't take a second thought and told her I would. We ended up meeting earlier today and spent about an hour talking with each other and enjoying a small lunch in each other's company. I walked her to her truck (she was already in Hartsville taking care of some errands, otherwise I would have picked her up) and talked to her for a couple more minutes before I gave her a couple kisses (passionate ones, mind you) goodbye. What's different about these kisses compared to the others is that she felt a little hesitant with the others, not with these.
So yeah, I think I'm finally starting to feel that she's truly interested in me, which is great news for me. I completely understand her desire to take things slow - I want to take them slow as well, considering I haven't been in a relationship in a long while. At the same time, I don't want things to go TOO slow, for fear that one of us might get bored with the relationship. Of course, if this happens, I'll just have to pick it up a notch. In either case, I'm not rushing, and I want her to realize that.
Now goes three more work days, which are right before Christmas. And I'll have to wait until after Christmas to see her again, unless for some reason her and I meet up after I get off work one of these next few days.
We'll have to wait and see.