Oh Yes
Heavy metal. From the Fever album, released in 2009. More info from Wikipedia.
Been a few days since I've updated, so I reckon that I can post a somewhat short update before I get to bed. I don't anticipate going into a lengthy story about what's transpired over the past few days; I just feel the need to speak my mind about what I currently feel with Kayla.
Over the past few days (since her birthday), things seem to have been progressing quite well between the two of us. At the initial onset of dating, it felt to me that Kayla was holding back a little; not wanting to be hurt again. However, I think she may have finally realized that I have no intent of hurting her - physically, mentally, emotionally, or otherwise - and she's somewhat warmed up to me a little bit. There are instances where it may feel like she's still being reserved, but they have an odd way of disappearing. Take for example her willingness to show affection. She has no problems showing it when I make an attempt to show my own affection, but she rarely initiates it. It's always me that's grabbing her hand, wrapping my arm around her, giving hugs, etc. It was only until recently (yesterday, if I recall), where she started a display of affection. Because of her willingness to return any affection I show her, this doesn't bother me, but it would still be nice to see her grab my hand from time to time and surprise me.
Another thing that caught my attention about her occurred earlier today. Last night, we mutually decided that we would meet up earlier today and spend a few hours in each other's company before I started adjusting to a new work schedule (that starts tomorrow). I didn't hear from her until late in the afternoon; far too late in the day to meet up. The thing about it was that it took me sending a text to her to get her to talk; her reply went along the lines of, "There you are! I was beginning to think that I wouldn't be hearing from you today!" To be brutally honest, this upset me a bit. Here she is, thinking that she wouldn't hear from me today, yet it still took me sending a text to get her to start talking? Clearly, she could have sent a text or even called to grab my attention, yet she insisted that I start conversation. Out of the entire time we've been talking to one another (roughly a month and a half), it's always been me to start talking - the only exception is the second or third day we were texting one another, where she in fact sent the first text of the day; since then, it's always been me talking to her first. Again, this isn't no big deal, but tying in with the affection deal, it would be nice to see her seem a bit more interested in me. I promise, it doesn't take much to impress me, and sending a text first or even giving a kiss first would more than surprise me.
On the other hand, I completely forget about all of these things when I'm in her company. In such a short time of dating (we're quickly closing in on that one-month mark), we've both openly confessed that we didn't expect to develop such strong feelings for one another. We're constantly smiling at one another when we're with each other, and the affection that we've recently been displaying has gotten far more passionate and intimate. Her family seemingly likes me, and I know for a fact that my sister likes her (proven to be true New Year's Eve). I've eaten dinner over at her house several times now (and her parents are completely supporting, especially her mother), and even ended up saying over quite late as of recently (3 AM for New Years Eve, going into New Year's Day, 2 AM as of (technically) earlier this morning). I'll eventually bring her around my house (contemplated the feasibility of it today, but because it was so late before we started talking, that plan kinda got thrown out the window), but I'm sure it'll be sooner than later.
All I know is that despite the one or two discrepancies I feel I have, I'm not regretting any of it, and though I do anticipate coming forward and addressing said "discrepancies" to Kayla sometime soon, I look forward to what happens between us. Because if things remain on the current track, I feel neither one of us will have to ever look again.
Bed time.