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May 2022

  • 3 min read

Progress

mood:  interested
music: All That Remains - Victim of the New Disease # (1)
  1. 🎵 Metalcore. From the Victim of the New Disease album, released in 2018. More info from Wikipedia.

Today turned out to be much better than expected. As previously stated, I headed over to the house today with the expectation that Kayla and I wouldn't talk too much about our situation and our future. This couldn't have been any farther from the truth. While I did spend a great deal of time talking to Kayla (I still want her to open up and spill the beans), the conversation was fruitful, constructive, and helped put my mind at ease.

There were a couple of buzz words that I picked up on her saying that made me feel good — I don't know if she intentionally said "baby" and "honey", or if she is just used to saying it, but today was the first time I've heard her call me by any term of endearment since this ordeal began. She also smiled briefly, and I wasted no time telling her that it was good to see her smile again; this was rewarded with another weak smile. I'm not complaining.

  • 5 min read

A Little Bit of Loneliness

mood:  tired
music: Asking Alexandria - Alone in a Room # (1)
  1. 🎵 Rock. From the Asking Alexandria album, released in 2017. More info from Wikipedia.

Today passed by relatively quickly. I didn't get any quality sleep last night, which in turn caused me to sleep in later than normal; by the time I managed to pull myself out of bed, it was close to 11 AM.

After crawling out of bed, I walked outside. Larry was working on his car, replacing the driver door handle that broke earlier this week. I used that as an opportunity to dig out the lightbulbs that he bought for me yesterday when he went to pick up the replacement door handle and replace the reverse lights on the truck; Larry told me that one of them was burnt out. When I replace bulbs, I normally replace both, so I don't have to worry about slight brightness mismatches or the other bulb burning out shortly down the road.

  • 14 min read

Journal Revival

mood:  blah
music: Brooks & Dunn - Neon Moon # (1)
  1. 🎵 Country. From the Brand New Man album, released in 1991. More info from Wikipedia.

It’s hard to believe that this account was created somewhere around 17 years ago. I recall the days of old, writing in this thing about Cassandra, taking breaks from writing, then writing about Liz, followed by more breaks, more about Cassandra, some about other women I was chatting up, and eventually culminating in a handful of entries about Kayla in the very early stages of our relationship back in 2011. Hell, it’s hard to believe that it’s been over ten years since my last update. As fate would have it, the purposes of knocking the dust off this old thing is the exact reason I stopped writing in it: Kayla.

A lot has changed in the past ten years, far more than I could ever accurately describe in a reasonable span of time. As such, my intent for the beginning of this update is to highlight the cliff notes and elaborate as needed after the fact.